When I am about to do a bible study with my husband or friend, but there is just something not right internally with who I am with or even someone else on my mind, God knows. And, I really don't think it's fair to Him or the person you are with. Do you? For example, if I have an internal conflict with my friend but never even told her, or I never forgave her for the wrong she did, then wouldn't I just be playing pretend and not being truthful, Yeah, I could be saying all the most spiritual and encouraging thoughts, but truly where is my heart? I need to make whatever wrong right first before I even come before God and study the scripture right?
How about when I go to church and 1/2 my mind is preoccupied with things that were currently stressing me out. Again, is that fair to God? I don't even think it's fair to the rest of the congregation that I will see at church. Because, I guess wouldn't I kinda be lying or utilizing my acting skills because what they see is totally fake? My heart was just not feeling right with God. Yeah, I come with a humongous smile on my face, because I know people get encouraged by that. And, yeah I know, we should encourage one another. Hey, one of my spiritual gifts said exhortation, so encouraging people is what God wants me to do right.
Remember, we all aren't perfect so our hearts are not always going to be right with God or others. However, from experience I am not going to say it works all the time, but I do find myself praying to God, giving him my hurt feelings and asking Him to help me reconcile and settle my differences. I ask God to help me forgive the person who wronged me. I don't know about you, but forgiving someone can be quite difficult and challenging. I am a pretty stubborn woman, so it may take me awhile or others' words of wisdom to make me even see what God wants me to do. But, when I finally realize it, in the end I feel a lot better. I would say my heart felt right, until next time........
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