Use Us

I'm 37 years old. My husband will finally be the same age as me in a couple weeks. That's right, babe, that means no more use of the word cougar, no more saying I'm dating a 37 year old and you are 36. Well, at least not until next May. See my birthday is in May and his birthday is in September. So, basically we were born in the same year but four months apart. Because, he did grow up in the Philippines, when he came to the US he was held back by one year in school when he got to Chicago for reasons I really don't understand.

So, there goes the story about the age difference with me and my husband. Years before my multiple sclerosis was getting really bothersome to my livelihood, things were cool. Meaning, I was able to do things that were coinciding with my age.

Looking at things now? I would have to say totally different. I'll share an example. One morning I wanted to eat cereal. Thank you Joe for getting me cereal and milk and a bowl and spoon.  So, then I wanted to pour the cereal into the bowl. And, I did it successfully. But, as I was pouring the milk, I was unable to do it successfully without spilling a little. In my mind, if I could just get a napkin and wipe my mess. However, that didn't really happen the way I wanted it to. Then I guess my hands were pretty shaky and being uncontrollable. So, when I grabbed for the napkin I wiped the milk off the table but then I ended up dropping the wet napkin on the floor..

In my husband's mind, he just should have done everything from pouring the cereal in the bowl to pouring the milk, then there would be no mess. And, he wouldn't have to clean up my mess.

See, what I'm saying? I'm not an actual kid. However because of my disability, my muscles may end up doing kid-like things. My deep thoughts about that is when I was a kid, I probably did tick my parents off with mess or something and then they would have in their mindset they should known to have done it all themselves.

My thoughts is maybe God is using the whole milk spillage and mess to teach me responsibility. God wants me to be in the process. I mean he would want me to clean my own mess.

Again, I know in Joe's mind it'll just tick him off because he's thinking it would be faster and better if he just cleans the mess because it would be faster and I would not be able to make even more mess from the mess I already did.

Anyway, I'm sharing the story because it kind of reminds me of God wanting to use us. We definitely may not be comfortable with what God wants us to do and we might even make a mess out of things. But, we need to be encouraged because God is going to help us if he has something planned for us to do and he is allowing that to happen.

Now, I'm thinking about sharing the gospel with people. That's uncomfortable sometimes, isn't it? But if God is going to choose us and allow this to happen, he is going to give us the passion and the strength to use us to bring others to Christ

Okay I'm going to end this writing with words from Pastor Greg Laurie:

But God in His great wisdom has chosen to use people to reach people. You can hardly find a story in the New Testament where an individual comes to faith apart from the involvement of another person. Yes, it was done through the Holy Spirit. But God worked through a person to bring someone to faith. And today, in the same way, God wants to use us. 

John 14:12 ESV

“Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do, because I am going to the Father.

Matthew 5:14-16 ESV

“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.

Philippians 2:12-13 ESV

Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, so now, not only as in my presence but much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure.