Genesis Series Part 26: Emotions

Happy day after hump day! This guy I used to see a lot would say happy Friday's Eve! You all know what I'm talking about. So, Happy Friday's Eve.

Shout out to Tawanda! Thank you, girl, for being so nice while you drove me and Aundrewell my caregiver back home yesterday. I pray that you will be encouraged by the writings! Before I start my writing this morning, my heart kept telling me to speak to this lady that was sitting behind me and offer her a card. I'm so glad I did she was so nice! Kameron, I'm so glad I met you and I pray that you will be encouraged by my writings! Time to do this!

Okay. When it comes to emotions like showing them and hiding them me and my husband, Joe, are complete opposites. Don't quote me on this or maybe it's not true but maybe that's how God created male and female. You know? Most males don't like to show emotion like if they're crying because it kind of puts them in the category of being a wuss or a baby. Right? What man would take that? I mean being called that. Maybe, depending on the situation a fist would be thrown in the air. Hey, it could happen!

Especially when guys have to undergo internal pain that they had no control over. Sound a bit familiar? I think the only time I really saw my husband show a little emotion maybe even a tear was when I was about to undergo surgery for the 2nd time. I had to go through my 2nd DNC surgery because we lost yet another baby. I guess he couldn't hide his feelings in with that. I mean it was a life and death surgery. Way after that crazy episode I had mentioned to him how heartfelt it was to see him cry before I went into surgery. And, he said he doesn't cry! His whole demeanor changed. Maybe I was so drugged up I was seeing things? Nah I doubt it. LOL

Anyway, okay enough about my husband and his hiding of feelings. Let's talk about the wife now me! For me, sometimes I cannot go a day without crying or just showing some kind of emotion. Why do I cry so much? I honestly cannot answer that in its entirety because it differs. Sometimes I cry because of my internal pain. Sometimes I cry because of harshness that is directed at me. Sometimes I cry because I'm frustrated with what God wants me to do or not want me to do. Most of the time and crying because God aggravates and confuses me. And, I should know God is not about that at all. So, I really should know to rebuke the evil one right away from entering my thoughts. Friends, that little devil will do that. Oh, oh yes he will.

So, those were a couple paragraphs about having sad tears. Now I would like to talk about happy tears. Like my wedding day was happy tears. Or when I eat a delicious meal brings happy tears. Listening to great music that touches my soul can you bring on happy tears. Sometimes when I am filming if the character calls for me to have tears then I will have tears.

Now I'm going to talk about the guy that has the same name as my husband in the Bible. Yep, you guessed it. Joseph. Poor guy probably showed an array of mixed emotions throughout his life. When his brothers sold him I would imagine him being in tears mixed with anger. When he was accused of sexually assaulting Potiphar's wife then in prison, I can't imagine all of the emotions he was feeling then. I imagine most were pretty bad! Then, later on, he was like that of a Chief advisor to Pharaoh.

Joseph was able to see that with all the hardships he went through. He was doing what God said he was going to do. He was saving lives, not just his family, but all of Egypt. Remember the famine that went down?

I'm going to end with a little something that happened this morning with me and my husband. It totally reminded me that God wanted to see the good of what happened instead of focusing on frustration, anger, or annoyance. Well, when we got in the car this morning and was ready to drive off to Starbucks before he got in the car he noticed something. He forgot my phone by the bed. I could sense from him a little bit of anger and frustration. Oh no! I did not say anything and it is very important to not show those feelings in my face either. Although it probably would have been fine if I didn't have my phone because I'm sure God would have something else planned for me to keep me busy or Aundrewell would have helped kept me busy. She is actually helping right now with my typing because my hands are tired. Thank you, Aundrewell! Since Joe is Mr. Fix It, and that is a blessing to me sometimes (and sometimes it's not LOL, but today it was), he went back up got my phone, and we began to drive off. I tried to encourage him by saying at least he realized I forgot my phone before we drove off. I can imagine the anger, frustration, and annoyance building up if that were to ever happen. Good thing it didn't!!

Encouraging thought of the day:

Try to find the good out of things when something bad happens.

TBC........

Philippians 4:6-7 ESV

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Proverbs 29:11 ESV 

A fool gives full vent to his spirit, but a wise man quietly holds it back.

Proverbs 15:18 ESV

A hot-tempered man stirs up strife, but he who is slow to anger quiets contention.