HIS Voice

It was so loud this morning. I'm not talking about, hearing the actual audibility of God's voice, if that's even a word lol. I think you know what I mean. It was just really loud but not.. I will say I felt his voice if that makes sense.

Let me share with you guys what I mean. Okay, you all know that I have MS. I am going to share with you guys one of my difficulties with this disease.

One thing that I'm pretty positive the evil one will utilize in order to get me doubting the goodness and work of God.

Okay, I don't want to be a Debbie Downer, so just realize that the end result will make you smile. Okay, the news that stinks is this.

A few years ago, I saw a doctor that specialized in the internal stuff down there. Basically, for normal people if you got to go, then you really should go and relieve yourself of course. Now, for Sam, basically after some tests, the final result that I was told was that my bladder has taken over my body. I know right ? I feel like I should end this sentence with dun dun dun! What does that mean? Let me explain.

You know when you feel like you have to go to the bathroom? Well maybe yeah you drank like a lof water and of course you have to go probably. Your brain is telling you that.

Well, with MS the evil one plays around with your brain. Some people suffer incontinence and some people just can't hold it and may quite possibly have an accident. I suffer from thinking that I really need to use the bathroom but I don't really need to go. I did not even drink much. In reality I can hold it until I'm able to get to the bathroom. I can hold it for as long as the Lord tells me. There have been times I held it like an hour or couple hours probably. Look at that as I'm doing my reading my bladder is really telling me I need to go. Then 5 minutes later feeling goes away. But I'm pretty sure it's holy spirit is telling me I don't need to go.

I just had like a sip of water to take my little pill. So, what do I have to do? I have to not go to the bathroom. I have to tell myself I do not have to go. Maybe, the evil one is messing with me so I can stop doing my reading right now and there's someone out there who really needs to hear it. I think sometimes the evil one is just being his normal jerky self. That's why I have a log where I actually track when use the bathroom. So, that way I can look at it and be like I do not even need to go because I just went like an hour ago. I didn't drink. Anyway, that's that.

Now, let me share with you how the Lord helps me with it and all the evil one only displays bad ways. A perfect example was this morning.

As I was going to Starbucks this morning, I felt like I had to go a little bit. When I got to Starbucks, I did kind of feel like I had to But I told myself I can hold it.

Sometimes I go use the bathroom before Joe leave for work. But this morning I ended up talking to Jenna, my Starbucks worker friend. Something inside me wanted me to ask her to help me to the bathroom in like 15 minutes. She said okay. Then, something in me said you do not have to use the bathroom. You only had you only had a sip of water.

Then Jenna came, and said okay let's go and then I told her about my condition and not to let me use the bathroom I'm going to hold it. She really wanted to take me now because sandbox wasn't busy . She was saying it might get really busy later. And, I was praying ready to do my writing. Then, surprisingly she came and wanted to take me to the bathroom. I always appreciate Jenna's help.

Then, something in my heart also known as the voice of the Lord, telling me you do not have to use the bathroom. You only had a sip of water. You can hold it and order yourself some coffee! 

See, what I mean? Wow, thank you to Jenna for getting ready to take me to the bathroom. However, my heart was telling me I could have held it and I didn't need to go. I guess the moral of the story is if you feel like the voice of God is speaking to your heart and telling you good things , make sure you don't list to the evil Whisperer telling you bad things, telling you ways to go against the will of God! Have a great Tuesday!