If That Then This

Do you like to talk to God? I know that I always do.  Sometimes I forget that I do it out in the open. Will people think I'm crazy? Probably.  But I really don't care. I know my husband will remind me when I'm doing it and I immediately try to keep the silence.

I don't think I was always like that. Knowing the old me, I probably close to never talked to God.  I really didn't see the point .  I was living a pretty good life. I was healthy. I was having fun with my friends and family. Maybe when I went to church I may have said stuff but I don't think I did. Again, I didn't really have the need to.

Then, it was like there was a break in the universe in my life. Meaning, since I was diagnosed with MS you better believe that me and God were talking a lot more. I spoke to God every time I prayed to him. He spoke back when I read His words in the Bible. It wasn't all the time.  Sometimes I just get the answer and I feel it in my heart. But,
when I would see the answer in the Bible, you could say I was pleasantly stunned.

I would say that the range of emotions varied from happy to sad to mad to frustrated to many more different emotions. I know there are a lot of emotions but I also realized this thought. If a person really doesn't need anything like maybe healing, restoration, etc.  You fill in the blank. What I am saying is, seriously, if we do not need anything, do we voluntarily want to talk to God?

Well, I can't speak for everybody. Remember that everyone is different. However, I will speak for myself. And, I'm not ashamed to admit that I didn't really talk to God before I had MS. Now, I'm not saying that God is the one that gave me this disease. But, I do know that God allowed it to happen to me. I do know that God wants to have relationships with his children. And, like I said earlier, I do know that I wasn't necessarily speaking to God often.

Now, if you take a look at my life now, God and I are on an everyday speaking basis. My mindset totally changed from before the MS to now. Am I angry at God for what he allowed. Well, I probably was for a certain amount of time. However, I think with much prayer and by the grace of God the Holy Spirit totally changed the way my heart was feeling. Now I totally see and understand why God allowed what he did. I know I have to endure this illness with all its physical disabilities. But, I can honestly say this. Since I have God in my life and know him as my personal Lord and savior, I will never have days when I will be without his help or the strength he promises to give me in order to endure any trials of any kind.

Encouraging thought of the day:

Remember every day you get a second chance...

Philippians 4: 13

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. 

James 1: 1-2

Consider it pure joy my brothers whenever you face Trials of many kinds because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.